Self - Exposed

One of the reasons I wanted to keep this particular blog going was to allow you to see the real me. I wanted to be that example so that as good things happen to my family and I, there are still set-backs, ups and downs, and every now and then depression comes knocking at the door. Most times it's ignored but some times the door is left cracked and it gets in.

This weekend I truly had a very surprising wake-up call. I really do focus a lot on how people see me and what that ultimately think of me and what I'm trying to do with me life. Last night my mom and I had girls night at her house (just the two of us) and while I was in the bathroom I looked in the mirror and was very disgusted at how I've let go of myself.

I'll be promoting my book soon nationally and I'm not sure if I'm at all ready for the limelight. My face use to be clear and now I have black spots all over the chin area. My teeth could use a cleaning and whitening, and I've totally neglected my hair. I told my husband that a lot of why my appearance isn't up to par is mainly because I've redirected my depression and that's been the result. There are so many other things going on and sometimes I feel as if I have no one to turn to. I know "this too shall pass" and this is advice I give others who are feeling down about things. I just needed to vent and get it out so it won't be buried.